mindscape archive

we're going to ignore the part where all this new found hard work is finally happening at the dawn of the new year lol

ok but for real, this isnt just a fluke of a new years resolution or something. i really do have plans to make some real changes wwith my creative life. i spent the last year doing a lot of planning in regards to my finances, my job, my mental state, my future in regards to my true passion, which is lliterally anything that isnt my fuck ass job, and most importantly, my future with my lovely, pawsome partner (˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)

I look at the year 2025 as sort of a backend reconstruction year when it comes to stuff like my job and finances. i spent a lot of time focused on both. paying down a very ugly credit card down to zero and injecting a fatass car payment to bring down my loan hard, to name a few examples. this led me to not have enough time to focus on passion projects such as this website or dj'ing.

but i truly believe that this year is the start of a new era. if 2025 was the backend reconstruction, then this year is the front end reconstruction. i will spend more time doing things i enjoy, working on projects that leave me fulfilled, spend more money on fun things such as tattoos and music equipment, and set aside more time and money for vacations with my partner. speaking of -

i absolutely could not have done this alone. my amazing partner helped me so much in 2025. i would have gone crazy solely focusing on the - reconstruction - aspect of 2025. but with them and i together, we make an amazing team together in the way we push each other into new boundaries, whether thats with self discovery or reminding each other that there is more to life than the cards we are dealt with.
i love them so much ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)

2026 is a new and bright, hopeful year filled with so many plans and changes that i am excited for. i will hope to continue to push myself iinto new limits

a quick note, current mindscapes wont be this long, at least, ill try to make them short. this is definitely more of a blog update than anything, and i thiink i am loosely thinking about making an actual, deadass blog. we'll see about that though :thiinking:

ive been hard at work trying to update the flow of the* website whenever i find myself with ample free time. the more i like to look at my website, the more motivated i am to keep going. my goal is to have this site have plenty of stuff to look at and read.

adding a lot of quality of life improvements, one of which being having a date on the bottom of sections like this to preserve personal archives. preserving information, personal to myself, has been a topic on my mind lately.

I have a lot more to say about this topic that i'm hoping to record into a blog or even an article. for now, i'll leave it at that, i do not want to ramble aimlessly. meow!

also, why the fuck does my jukebox not work anymore!!!!! shit you not i did NOTHING with it, it literally just decided to stop working one day! what the efffing fucki!!!